**EDITED** I couldn't handle my redundant sentence of redundancy.
http://www.opticraft.net/index.php/page,BanLookup.html?username=BenwinWell... where to start?
Wow, what an asshole I've been, no? Now... these are in no particular order.
-- I duped diamond pstones and used them to protect my areas. (And those of the friends that came over to hang out with me.) I guess my only real saving grace was that I never sold them/gave them to others. (Except Agito/Aperture/Mixture)
-- I evaded the ban originally set. Twice. Admittedly, though, this was to:
A: Give the chest that I had hidden that was full of diamond pstones to the ops/upper staff. The chest was also not protected, so had someone stumbled across it, it would have been payday for them.
B: To say hi to the people that I miss... the list is pretty long and irrelevant to the status of my appeal... but I do miss quite a few of you. I taunted a few people while I was evading... It was immature, I know. Sorry.
-- I gave Nick attitude for no good reason. I was a complete ass to you, dude. Sorry. I taunted you, I harassed you, I goaded you. I'm sorry dude. You didn't deserve it.
-- I betrayed trust. I betrayed Optical's trust even moreso. He trusted me enough to break his own rules. I'm really sorry...
-- -- This one is possibly the one that I really despise myself for, because I don't place trust in people very frequently, and I know how much it hurts me when that trust is betrayed. I let the server down. I let the upper staff down. I let my fellow moderators down... but worst of all, I unfairly enforced the rules with the "members" -- I kicked/banned them for doing the things that I was actually doing all along. And for that, I'm really sorry.
I really miss you guys. Genuinely I do. I have tried to keep in touch with some, but it's not enough. I want to come back and play with you all again.
Why should I be unbanned? To be quite honest, I probably shouldn't. I was an entitled ass. Especially toward the end, I just stopped caring. I should have done the adult thing and stepped down from being a moderator, but instead, I decided to be a complete jackass. What was I thinking?
The whole time I've been typing this, I've been on IRC talking to 2crzy4uall and Drunz and others. (I would list names, but you probably don't care)
I haven't been starting drama, I haven't been arguing or fighting... just talking. I miss that. When people ask questions, I try my best to answer them.
I hope you guys will consider letting me come back. I just want to play with you all again. It's been about five months since I've actually been able to play with you all.
-Benwin
